Weekend, March 4-6, 2005:
Since I wasn't around to post, I might as well do it now and wrap it all up into one entry. I had an interesting weekend. Left all of my school stuff in my friend's van though. I knew I should have taken it in with me. My mistake though. Oh well, hopefully he'll pass it to me first block. Same guy I went home with directly after school friday, heh. So it shouldn't be too hard to get my stuff from him. Oh well, nothing important, just every book I have for my classes. Went home with him, and he showed me his drumset, and his abilities in playing, which are very good. I sat down at them and played around a bit... Seeing what I could do, since I've only sat at a drumset 3 times in my entire existance. I spent that night with TJ and another friend talking and listening to music, and it put me in an interesting mindset. It just summed up my entire personality in one chain of thoughts. The real me... somewhat. Even though I was shivering the whole time... because it was kind of cold. Left me with a feeling of "How did I live before I realized all of this?" Which is what I thought about a lot today. Most of yesterday too, even though I slept most of yesterday. I got to meet TJ's guitar teacher, and play around with one nice guitar the entire time he was at his lessons. So that was fun. TJ and I spent the afternoon recording some samples of riffs for usage later on. Woo, we were really on a good note last night. Good times. It's always fun to question your own existance. Yes, indeed. When someone is right next to you, but seems miles away. That's the fun time, a chance to think...a chance to allow your ego to dissolve and see what you really are. Oh no, look at me... I'm going off onto some deep tangent. Nah, I'll stop it right there.

There's nothing better than dancing around and passing out on the living room floor while your friends watch and freak out. The reaction is priceless.

Though I didn't stay home much this weekend.. I had a good time, and had a chance to get some files and stuff from a friend. Though I missed an entire outing with ~Kilayi and ~fearinmotion, I was informed of it only a few days in advance... after I had made plans with TJ. So... Oh well.

I still wish that some of the people I know would just take some time out of their oh so busy day and at least acknowledge my existence. I don't know how they see me right now, but if it's as someone that doesn't care... then they're wrong. It always seems like they're a bigger part of my life than I am of theirs. The feeling of being insignificant is wonderful, especially when I think of it like that.

Oh well. Not like it matters. It never matters.